2005-10-09 - 8:22 p.m.
(allow me to be navel gazing for a moment)
It's finally starting to feel like fall in NYC and maybe that's why I have had a terrible cough for the past week. I'm currently seeking balance in my life. Kerry (rightly) pointed out that I am most likely addicted to work. I exclaimed, "What!?" after working about a 60 hour week at my new job at a museum and then doing some freelance work on the side, then writing an article, then trying to have band practice... then I realized I was ridiculous.
I am realizing that despite my resistance to capitalist idealogy and action, I find that my New England Protesant work ethic roots go deep, deeper than I realized (no suprise there). It's easy to fall in to griping about money with my co-workers even if I've done my budgeting and know I can survive on what I make, it's easy to think that if I had a salary I might be happier, there are so many excuses to fall into these ways of thinking, but ultimately, it's my choice to resist them and to find ways for myself to be happy with where I'm at (because it is the right place for me) and find ways to be in this world that values work for education and social change along with time for rest, reflection and building healthy relationships. Because that's also what we need too to undermine damaging capitalist ways of operating too.
(ps. bandmate Maggie re-introduced me to the Feelies record Crazy Rythms. How have a owned this record since age 17 and not worn it out? It's totaly amazing...)
